“Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tiptoe if you must but take the step.”
EXACTLY where I am right now! One of the struggles I have is going in the right direction. I have definitely been going in the wrong direction these last couple of months and that was just made crystal clear to me very recently. I honestly thank The Lord for answering my prayer about it. He rescued me from a bad situation. This is a different situation than what you are probably thinking. However, I choose to keep that to myself. PLEASE DON’T ANYONE ASK ME FOR DETAILS! And before I go on there won’t be any Kevin bashing. This blog is for me to release the demons of my entire life and to help others along the way.
So, it is not always about taking a step – even the smallest one – it is also about figuring out which direction is right. For now, the right direction for me is going to have to be what I need in the moment . . . in the present time in my life. I don’t have to answer to anyone else to see if they approve. As far as taking a step, no matter how small it is, that is proving to be more difficult to me every day. Some days I feel like someone has thrown me into quicksand and I’m sinking at a rather rapid pace for such a thing. Other days I feel like while I was sleeping, someone cured my feet and legs in concrete and I cannot physically pick them up to even take one more step. It takes all the physical, mental and emotional energy I have on most days right now. Sometimes I can’t even tiptoe . . . I have to crawl. I had someone ask me recently what was one of my greatest fears about all of this. Because it was in the moment, where I am trying to live, my answer at the time was THE LONELINESS! The loneliness can be extreme. Some people love to be alone more often than not. And then there are those who have the kind of personality who are lovers, touchers, feelers, nurturers, comforters and love being around other people. That would be ME, so I find it very difficult to just be alone with my thoughts. That is one of the scariest things for me.
But for today, here is the good . . . I am strong. You are strong. We are stronger than we think. I promised you I would share my story and at the end of every blog post I would give you the good . . . I go back to why I started writing this blog . . . my true hope for you is to bring you peace knowing that The Lord is always there (He carries me most of the time) and laughter because life can be so ridiculous you just have to LOL (Laugh Out Loud) sometimes. Some days will be harder than others, but I am encouraging you and reminding myself to slow down and take a moment to Look for the good . . . . It’s there you just have to look for it. Much Peace and Love Y’all! Peace and Happiness are coming . . .